Live Bubble

Recently in my journal, I discovered the significance of the balloon within my work after looking at some beautiful glass blowings in the shape of bubbles in a small gallery in Berlin.

There is no arguing that we are always increasing our involvement with technology and the digital world unless you are making an active decision to cut down. I visualised this through the idea of the bubble; everyone has their own bubble of cyber reality going on in their heads and on the net, these bubbles are getting bigger and thicker skins everyday and everytime we interact with digital media, we get more reliant on it and it become more and more important to our lives. As of this, I thought about a sculptural piece that would initially be a layer of paper mache around a balloon to get the shape and then I’d build up many many layers around this balloon to translate the thickening of it’s skin.

I decided against the layering idea because after about 2 layers of newspaper, the shell around the balloon could hold itself but still felt extremely fragile which began taking on a new context. Without much thought, I threaded in some of the wires I’d acquired from a skip then placed it at the end of a ridge of sand like you can see in the pictures, as if the sand was seeping out of the balloon.

Reflection: It was just a quick experimental piece but came to be rather relevant when I reflected on what I’d done. The thin layer of newspaper so obviously expresses the media. The thin empty, hollowness of the balloon shape that represents our digitally obsessed minds is coated by a layer of ripped up and stuck together often toxic news that feeds everyones minds the same information whether it’s true or not. Leaving a hollow inner that suggests we have nothing inside our cyber reality and thoughts, it’s just an empty space encaptured by popular media. And then there is the addition of the wires, reinforcing the role of technology in this argument. The wires weave in and out of the media feeding through the hollow thoughts of the person and entangling and encompassing them within its web like a spider catching its careless, uninformed prey.

The sand coming from the foot of this visual description is exactly what it seems – all this absentmindedness and control from the media and technology will result in a world of barren desert and sand.

 

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Toxic Cities of the Future

This is a development of my ideas surrounding the concept that the future is desert. It was not long after christmas that I made this piece all thanks to a piece of biscuit packaging. This packaging caught my eye, the shapes were kind of beautiful and if you were just given the piece of plastic you may not necessarily realise what it’s used for. Also, this very shapely piece of plastic shouted ‘pointless’. I mean something like that is so pointless, it holds biscuits in an ‘attractive arrangement’ just because it can, it doesn’t make them taste any nicer, it’s literally just there for show and tidy positioning. But I guess the biscuits wouldn’t sell if they were just chucked in a box, because obviously the business that made them would rather spend a little time on the packaging and get more money than using less materials right? This is an example of the sort of things we in the West don’t think about because it’s so normal. That wasn’t the best example of showing the extent of hilarity and pointlessness we humans reach but it was enough to drive this piece of sculpture.

Once I’d identified my interest in this piece of carefully moulded plastic, considered the waste pile it will be found in, in just a few days; along with all the other biscuit packets, plastic meat, veg, ice-cream, cheese, toys, electrical appliances, hair products containers and packaging, I imagined the negative space within these piece of manufactured plastic and began collecting more from the bins.

Above is the result of tightly filling the containers with the oil sand and basically making sandcastles with them.

Reflection: My intention was to spontaneously create a sculpture that acts as a foreshadowing for the future. Oil sand holds its shape really well but it is also extremely harmful to the environment. By using such a significant material when making a model of a futuristic settlement or even a city from this harmful toxic material, it raises questions to whether or not we are already doing so. The sand has been shaped from the waste of our consumerist modern day world, metaphorically speaking,  by taking casts from the negative spaces of these products is what’s moulding our future. What’s within our plastic packaging is what we can expect to experience in the future, and that is toxic sands molded from what little resources we have left and masses of rubbish we have created.

By representing our future as being made from oil (a resource so undeniable key to politics, economics and being able to live our comfortable lives) sand, I imply a dry, desolate, toxic future where there’s no life in the landscape, no fruitful colours or wild animals, just dry contaminated material, and what’s left of us, living in emptiness inside.

Oil sand is such a great material to use so I don’t want to abandon it within my work. I’m unsure as of yet how to use it again but it would be really interesting to create another piece of sand sculpture that further explores the possibility of shaping our future, as well as possible including other elements or materials that will enhance further what I am trying to portray.

 

 

 

Term 1 Evaluation

Whether it was me or someone I knew travelling, distant separations and long periods of time have been a major part of my past year and this was the initial inspiration for the work I have produced up until now.  Although I have touched on other subjects and ideas, the underlying notion behind my work is that of ‘the moments in between’. This originated from obvious thoughts about “a cut in time” and “space of existence” when someone is no longer physically spending time with you. Despite new technology ‘bringing people closer together’, the facts are “you can only be with someone when you are with them” therefor when talking on the phone or on facetime, there is no real, solid evidence that you are actually connecting with them – because you are not. As of this, through image making of different sorts, I have explored the constant overlapping of interaction a mother may have with a child compared to the singular interaction of two strangers meeting for one time only. The idea of this ‘gap’ then developed through to performance art where I attempt to experience the void of getting lost and what it meant for objects being taken from the lost place. My intention was to make work that highlights these gaps in our understanding, actions, perception and conscious beliefs, then push their boundaries. I still have much to explore and build upon and have moved through many different circles of thought to get here. I recognise my work would benefit from being a more refined concept earlier on to leave me more time for scrutiny, rather than brushing over other ideas with little relevance.

New to studying fine art, my earliest work took a familiar form of painting, collage, photography and drawing but my first attempt at video art led to more video plus performance. I have discovered that the involvement of the body, essence of human and movement are of more interest to me than the arguably stationary presence and resulting flat image of say painting. I can connect to work much better if it is more sensually stimulating, then feel more in tune and involved with what I am trying to communicate. Saying this, since my first visit to the workshop, I’ve hardly left. Casting, woodwork and welding have all become the processes I’ve used to make my most recent works. I’ve never used machinery like this before and have begun creating sculptures. Some of the sculptures I’ve made however have not been developed in anyway or revisited. Working in this intuitive way has been letting the work itself evoke future ideas but at the same time I abandon work I may have only just finished. I could be overlooking great potential for development so from now I will take more care with reflection and not jump to the next thing if I haven’t considered the possibilities of what is right in front of me.

In terms of imagination, my starting point was quite simple and direct: being away from someone means physical space and being with someone implies wholeness. This directly informed the grid like paintings and weaving I touched on at the very beginning. Alongside, I made images by visually simplifying experiences and moments from photos as a form of documentation which did have more complex associations with psychology of information and perception of the viewer. Visual explanation of events was a key theme. But I found it quite restricting as the point of it was simplification and documentation of moments so taking it further kind of felt defeatist and a uninteresting. But, the relevance of the gap regained its importance and thanks to a major study of John Cage’s work, for example 4’33” where a pianist walks up to a piano in the gallery space, expected to play the instrument however captures the audience and sends them spiralling into an in between of understanding left with ‘nothing’ when he walks away having not played a single note. My imagination became angled more towards the potential of discovering and creating voids. I became fascinated with lost places of nonexistence but how they must exist if we can call them moments or places.  These complex ideas grew into video and performance. If I compare the direct approach I had when painting grids compared to the video piece I did about capturing ‘moments between the functions’ like blinking, finding the radio station and the role of the hinge in a door. I can see the evolution of form and media as well as a more concise objective and outcome; even if my technological understanding was poor.

I have thrown myself into all ways of working and am slowly discovering what media I’m most attracted to which is currently performance and sculpture. Simultaneously, I still find myself struggling to balance my practice with research; I get myself lost in theories and ideas, write masses about artists and their concepts but don’t really know what to do with it. Following this in depth reflection, I will get more focused on coordinating conceptual research with physical work.

Discovering that work like John Cage’s 4’33” performance exists and is celebrated was hugely influential, plus relevant to my ideas of void and the nothing in gaps. Prior again, a quote from the book ‘Trickster makes this world’ by Lewis Hyde about artist Rebecca Horn, fed me the first example of a ‘space in between’ when stating that there is a place neither leading out nor leading in to the door and this is the place of “the hinge”; the “in between of two identified functions” and an element so often forgotten. The hinge related considerably to my research on the theory of phenomenology which was established by German philosopher, Edmund Husserl.  Although it is difficult to define phenomenology, it “is considered to be oriented on discovery” and associates with ideas of experience and ‘aboutness’.  In phenomenology, there are theories about retention and pretention. “Retention is not a representation or memory but a presentation of a temporarily extended present.” A concept about nothing but an observation of the way our conscious experience works between the present and the future and highlights the space between them.

I can see how my ideas have been solely gyrating around philosophy and psychology with little relevance to contemporary issues or debates. Yet recently, in sculpture I’ve used found and organic materials so thoughts of climate change and our natural environment have arisen. Since watching the American Presidential debates, seeing their outcome and watching the documentary by Leonardo DiCaprio called ‘Before the Flood’, I have begun to address concerns with the lack of attention the natural world will receive in the coming years. I have so far only begun to support this within the materials I am using, location of video and performance and journal research on artists’ Tania Kovats and Richard Long. As of my lack of alliance with the contemporary world, social and political issues, I know to combine my ideas with critical concerns in the future and I predict these may have a lot to do with effect of climate change and future of our planet.

The journal has played an important part of my practise since the summer when I learnt of the universe in a box project, and it has been a very useful clarification and research tool. I note down everything from visiting artist talks, art history lectures, screenings, artist studies and some reflection. My journal is like a long string of ideas, every quote or idea I’ve found interesting is gathered here, along with informative but regrettably not as clearer reflection as I thought I’d done. I have reflected on my work and my progress however after re reading my journals, it is not organised or obvious. Discovering that most of my reflection and decision making was done in my head and whatever idea or thing that came after is what I’d write down. I see how I have often told the reader my thoughts on concepts and new ideas but only rarely looked back on previous ones. Separately, I have made a blog to present the video and performance work I have been doing and after each post I do provide a paragraph of reflection. Typing thoughts up feels more formal and precise; it’s easier to articulate myself, implying it may be useful to use an online format as a journal or for reflection in the future.

Using technology more and admittedly not having used the studio due to space, led me into all the kinds of media that a studio space wasn’t needed for like video, performance and doing sculpture in the workshops. But I have been in the workshop almost every day for the last 3 weeks and before that was planning and making videos and performances. I enjoy the freedom on the course and the easy, encouraged access to things like the workshop and have been using the library often as well. However one thing I am struggling with is the technical side of video and sound editing, I believe there is a course run to help student with computer editing software which I will join in January. I know that if I had a better technical understanding and access to professional software then the overall quality of my video work would improve. Along similar lines, over the break I’d like to improve my professional presence as an artist all together whether that’s through documentation of work, online presence, more directly and confidently contextualising my practise and being generally more aware of the contemporary world all together.

Surrounding Inbetweens

This was my final piece of work from term 1 at Falmouth:

It was a piece aiming to summarise the ideas about repeatedly going within a moment of inbetween and then within it again where the materials I used (wood branch slices) are involved with many circular representations of being surrounded and within a moment of nothing or in between.

Lost in fluid surroundings

I surround myself with water collected from the ocean after filming my ‘Under nothing but ocean’ video about the ocean surrounding you and how due to the nature of the sea and its mass connection all over the world, you are effectively always lost as the same water particles of your surrounding will probably never come in contact with your existence ever again. As of this, I can conclude that this particular ‘after performance’ using water from the ocean does surround you in a similar way as the ocean does. I have taken the water particles from a bigger source (the sea) to present them as separate objects around me, the difference here however is that the ‘taken pieces from the lost in between’ were once all interconnected and were a genuine ‘piece’ from the forces of my ‘lost’ surroundings. The water particles are very difficult to obtain once released, therefor, it’s hard to ‘do’ anything with the water once it has been poured around me, unlike the solid objects from the other lost experiment I did where i could manipulate and position them as I pleased. This formulates  questions about timelessness and supports the idea of the momentary feeling of being lost that can’t be reclaimed, you can only feel it again if you get lost in another different new place and in this case it would be to collect a new selection of water.

Alone, lost ocean photos

I photographer a friend whilst swimming to try to capture the essence of the aloneness and lost reality of the sea but with the addition of a the conscious human experiencing it.

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I have found that the flecks of cold white skin and absence of the face share a vulnerability and mystery in the collection of photographs. The face of the person is the way we read and confirm the reality of them but by not seeing the face creates a mood of separation linking to my ideas of being lost and addressing the unknown of your surroundings. Also, feet and hands are at the very end of our limbs, the furthest body parts away from our hearts, most distant from the self and having these stand out being so white and so unprotected against the dark background of the ocean and black wetsuit evokes the same feeling of lost and obscurance of moment and place.

Under nothing but ocean

 

This beautiful video I’ve made is so simple yet captivating, the constant dynamic movement of the sea effectively leaves a person continuously lost when within its surrounding waters. Because of the oceans constant movement, the same particle is very unlikely to ever come in contact with your body again there for every moment is essentially a moment of lost because your surroundings are forever brand new and you would never have experienced them in the past and never will in the future.

In the video I swim far out to sea then tread water whilst spinning around raising the camera above the water level and below at random moments. As the weather changed and the sun began to set, the water change colour and streams of light lit up the surrounding water. Due to the poor quality of my underwater camera, these light beams became pixelated and unexpectedly beautiful. You can find these about 11 minutes in. The white gap you see appear above and below the water when facing the light ties nicely into my ideas about ‘spaces in between’. The harsh whiteness is like a void of nothing or glitch without explanation. It looks like a gateway that leads into the abyss of nothing.

Although this was difficult, I purposely swam far out in order to capture no other people or land in my footage. The shots of just the endless out to sea and nothingness of the perspective under the water are cooling and a bit frightening, the complete essence of lostness and being alone. You may find this peaceful or scary depending on your perspective and experiences but there is no doubt the video comes across beautifully eerie along with the slowed soundtrack which could sound like someone slowly drowning or a conversation stolen from cyberspace.

The visuals of the video are supporting my theories of the sea, they are obviously fluid and ever changing but because of the nature of the ocean, the first shot it literally directly connected to the end shot and every shot in between! Continuous brand new surroundings and pure fluidity.